Blathering and Gibberish

Nearly a year of almost complete isolation is eroding my ability to hold a coherent conversation. So much of my daily interaction is via text—emails, text messages, social media—and so little involves actually speaking. My husband is the only other person I see and talk with regularly, and our actual time together is limited; he…

Blah.

It’s Sunday night. Do you know where my motivation is? I sure as fuck don’t.

Conversations With My Brain, Ep. 1

4:44 am Wake up, you have to pee. I don’t want to. It’s nearly time to get up and work. If I get up now, I’ll never get back to sleep. It’s early enough. You have an hour. Just pee and get back to bed. [Fiona Apple’s “Shadowboxer” starts playing] Shut up, shut up. I…

A New Day

I’ve been off work the past 2 days, and I tried to enjoy that time as best I could. Which meant I stayed away from the computer as much as I could. Yesterday, especially, I spent the day in a cloud of joyful bliss. I watched live as Trump left the White House for the…

I Don’t Know Any Hymns.

We went to dinner one night at the home of a couple who were friends with my mother-in-law. Lifelong friends. Church friends. After dinner, we gathered in the living room. There was a nice piano there, and the wife began to play. She wanted us to sing along with her. I like to sing, so…

Too Much Free Time

I’m the kind of person who thinks of a task, project, or chore and then cannot sit down and relax until I’ve done it. If I try to sit, or sleep, or do anything else, the little voice in the back of my head starts screaming. I start mentally calculating how long the task will…

Hamilton

I’m sitting here watching Hamilton with the closed captioning on. I’ll be honest, I didn’t really like it the first time I saw it, when Disney released it last summer. I actually had tickets to see it at the Kennedy Center in September, but, well…2020. I’d never listened to the soundtrack or anything before; the…

Impeachment, Take Two

As if we don’t have enough going on in our world, the House of Representatives has spent today giving posturing politicians on both sides of the aisle their chances to look good to their constituents while “debating” whether this president should be impeached again. The takeaways for me are these: Too many of them are…

Excuses, Excuses

There’s a part of me that’s been curious about the whole bullet-journal concept. I can’t say I’ve put a lot of research into it, because it seems like a lot of work just to keep track of yourself. I mean, people are handwriting their To-Do lists and decorating their journals with stickers and such. Are…